Workout today was a full body workout curtesy of p90x plus. It's really good but it forces me to realize just how weak I really am...I still struggle with pushups(though I have seen some improvements) and pullups...fuh-get about it. I thought that maybe after so many months of
training to do a pull-up I might be further along...but no dice my friend. If I hang on the bar, I
can barely pull myself up at all...maybe 1/4 of the way. GRRR!
I'm wondering if pullups are just going to be intesnly more difficult for me cause I've got such a larger lower body in comparison to my upper body? I mean I'm a 6-8 on bottom and a 00-0 on top...that's a huge difference...all my mass is in my stomach, hips and legs so that's an awful lot for my little tiny arms to pull up!!!
I think my body has decided it's had enough. Enough of restrictive diets and crazy eating plans and all that junk. I mean, after struggling with my phobia induced anorexia for 3+ years(during puberty might I add, which I think affects things even more!), then all my years of stomach problems and eating very little, then the past 5 years where I've been on one diet or another for at least 6 months out of every year(I thought about this today and I was blown away by the fact that every single year I've been on some kind of "diet" I designed to help me lose weight, only to gain it or more back to lose the next year!).
My body is done with all this. How do I know this? Well, in
spite of daily exercise for almost 6 months combined with a moderate calorie diet, I have put on and maintained over 15 pounds. I've tried multiple types of diets to combat this weight and it ain't going no where. I have trained my body to wonder where the next calorie is coming from because I haven't been fueling myself properly for so long that's it's holding on to everything it has.
When I really started pushing myself physically with exercise over the summer, I saw a huge increase in my appetite....but instead of being thrilled with the fact that it meant my body knew exactly what to do to make sure I met my nutritional needs and that my metabolism was going
into overdrive, I freaked out and worried I was going to gain weight so I started cutting back my food even more. Duh!
Well, enough rambling...on to the good part....the food!
Breakfast-baked apple oatmeal(i cooked the apple with the oats, also put cinnamon and brown sugar on it) with 2 EW and 1 egg. Hubby was hovering around so I felt stupid pulling out the SLR in front of him to take a picture of my food(lol!) so I snapped a quick pic with my iphone but it looks crappy so I ain't posting it!
Snack-had some sesame seed crackers right out of the box in the costco parking lot as I was loading up my car(yes I was THAT hungry!). I'm classy I know it!
Lunch-I took yesterday's basic lunch and expanded on it: Added red pepper to my sandwich and had a big salad as well(spring mix, peppers, walnuts, balsamic vinegrette)
Afternoon snack-celery with pb. I wish I had some cranberries or raisins to put on this...Ants on a log-remember that!
Post-workout-Cherry/pomegrante green monster. 3 c. steamed spinach, 1/2 pomegrante, 1 c. cherries, 1 c. almond milk, handful of walnuts, 1/2 scoop protein powder, 1 t. glutamine. YUM!
*note-I filled this glass three times with the amount I had in the blender.
Dinner-I'm very proud of the creativity involved in my main dish...not so much in the side(lol). Red lentils and white bean stew in half of an acorn squash sprinkled with a little parm. It was incredibly delicious...particularly after I added in some sesame seed crackers! The slight sweetness of the squash was a perfect complement to the garlicy/oniony soup. The side dish...pitiful looking frozen green beans. not so yum!
Red Lentil and White Bean Stew*
2 t. EVOO
1/2 c. chopped onion
1 chopped scallion
1/2 T minced garlic
1/2 c. red lentils
1 c. water
14 oz white beans
1 t. onion powder
1 t. garlic powder
1/2 t. salt
1 t. parsley
dash red pepper flakes
1 tomato, chopped
1.5 c. spinach
Brown onions, scallions and garlic in oil. Add lentils and water. Cook 30 minutes till lentils are tender(they look like soggy cereal..lol). Add rest of ingredients except spinach and cook 30 more minutes. Add spinach right before serving. If desired spoon into a cooked squash, top with 1 t. parmesan and bake for 10 minutes...YUM!!
*ingredient amounts are approximate...I don't measure!
Well, now I'm drinking a mug of mint herbal tea...and maybe I'll have another snack...who knows?
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